Your dad is changing

Hi little one,

I know I did not write to you last week. I am updating my schedule, I will write to you every two weeks. If you are disappointed, then don't be because I am trying to focus on quality instead of quantity. I have been mostly advising you for the last couple of weeks. This time, it is a bit different, I need to reflect on my own thoughts, feelings, attitudes and philosophy of my life. Socrates rightly said "An unexamined life is not worth living" and I truly believe in that. Self-introspection is a powerful tool and we should use it from time to time.

Your dad has believed in certain principles until now. Love, romance, marriage, a happy family and all that. I would like to believe in all that in the future as well. But, I have been become more open towards other ways of leading my life. I am not so sure that I can spend my life with another person, give them all the love and happiness and grow old together. I have other things that I intend to do - music, poetry, film, photography and they keep me happy and occupied. I also like to keep my own company and have become somewhat less social. 

I have become quite liberated, I must say and exploring a different side to myself which I have kept suppressed all this while. But, this change has been quite scary and overwhelming for me as well. I do not know what the future holds, but I hope it is good. This change has been a result of catastrophic loss about a year back, which I haven't had the courage to tell you about - but soon I will.

Yours (a little bit confused),

Dad

P.S - The cycle of change above.